Friday, July 20, 2007

July 20, 2007 I Got the Blues

Week 2 Day 2
I really need to work on bringing up my energy level, I don’t like to do too many things in one day although I always have so much on my list of things to do. I woke up at 5AM in an attempt to finish my research paper, of course I didn’t finish it by the time I got ready to go shadow my doctor but I still emailed what I have to my advisor and promised it’d be finished by the end of the month (crunch time!). I got back from the doctor’s at around 1:30 and I was just BEAT. All I wanted to do was watch TV and/or read a book. I don’t feel like going to the gym, or making a needed errand trip to the bank, or following up on my job applications, or working on my paper, or try to do something about the mountain of clothes on my bed. It’s like I can’t do more than 2 or 3 significant things in the day although I have so many commitments. It’s now 7 and since I got home I barely got off of the couch. I swear if it wasn’t for the fact that I’m losing weight and eating healthy I’d be depressed right now. I’m not sure if it’s even about energy or why I get like this.

Cecille at body image suggested I should really try to get 4 workouts in the week. Last week I only worked out twice and they were pretty moderate workouts, I haven’t gone to the gym yet this week and I know I won’t be able to go tomorrow or Sunday because my schedule is packed on both days and if I can spare time it should be for finishing my paper which is causing me a great deal of stress and panic.

Just like yesterday, today for lunch I had chicken salad and ravioli but about a third of the portions of yesterday, literally it was a couple of raviolis (big ones) and like 5 bites of chicken salad- and I added a peach. I was soooooo full but my lunch was still about 400 calories. I’ve already had six cups of coffee and I feel my heart beating a bit fast and my hands are shaky, so that will be the last of the coffee for the day.

I didn’t have much of a dinner, just some deli chicken slices and my total today is 678 calories, 19 grams of fat, and 28 grams of carbs!


zeey said...

maybe ur lack of desire to get up from the couch today has to do with the fact u were up really late working on ur paper last nite and then up again at 5 AM, u probly had less than 3 hrs of sleep im guessin right? If ur well rested ull feel like gettin stuff done when ur pushin urself on such little sleep and also overwhelmed with so many things to do and not kinda knowing where to start, it's REALLY hard! Thats soo awesome about the adidas pants, im excited about all the hott clothes u got in ur closet that ur gonna be able to wear now insha'Allah! isnt that motivating and exciting??
Sometimes with pesky tasks like the gym u just gotta make urself go and do it or like the i didnt go to the gym all week either and ive been so burned out from work, apt paperwork, we have been inviting ppl, today i made myself go i really didnt feel like it, but once i went i was glad i did. I mean if for no other reason but that ur payin for it!!
ok my post is ridiculously long..btw 2moro can i catch a ride wit u to k's place after work? txt me or sumtin...

amma15 said...

Yea thinking about clothes is definately a big motivator, but really I'm just so lazy, I woke up early enough to go to the gym but the thought of going to the gym right now is as dreadful as like....going to get a bikini wax or something!

Yea sure I can definately give you a ride and I really hope she makes some healthy food because everything she told me was fried

Janie said...

Hey! I don't know you and you don't know me, but I randomly ran across your blog while doing a google search for "shadowing optometrists" and "optometrists hiring in Baton Rouge". When I read your posts, my jaw literally DROPPED because we are literally in the same shoes in every way possible... I Have a closet FULL OF CLOTHES but I only wear my sweat pants, and my cotton dresses, and my skirts because jeans, and pants, and shorts simply look too tight and feel WAY too tight to wear. And we are pretty much the same age, and in the same situation with schooling, and we even live in the same city. I just moved here from New Orleans, it would be great to have a new acquaintance from the same city. I think it would be nice if we can email each other sometimes just to see how both of our situations are going. And I would LOVE to know how you got the position of shadowing with an optometrist. You can email me at

amma15 said...

Wow Janie, that's so weird!!! You said you moved from new orleans, I went to tulane! I know you don't know there's only a handful that knows me personaly that I allow to read my blog it's more of an anonymous thing. Well I hope reading my blog gives you some kind of motivation and encouragement to become the size you want!