Thursday, February 21, 2008

I'm back and on "vacation"

I'm back, I'm still alive!

On January 24th I left for a 2 week vacation to chicago but ended up extending it for an indefinite period of time. I came for an admissions open house that a graduate program I'm very interested in was having, and then I decided to just stay here at my aunt's house and prepare for my entrance exam where I'm removed from the distractions of home.

I've been really busy with applications and studying because I'm pushing lots of deadlines at this point. I'm a relatively borderline applicant and the score that I make on the exam is pretty much going to make it or break it in terms of admission for me. I'm trying not to let that get to me but I can' thelp it and I've been stressing out like crazy. I've already reschedule the exam date twice.

I've put back on 4.5 lbs from my lowest weight but I'm getting back on track. It's harder to be conscious of what I eat when I'm really stressed out and I haven't been working out more than 2-3 times a week so I felt compelled to renew my prescription for the appetite suppressants. I restarted those last week and they've helped tremendously with the portion control but I still eat alot of junk food and sometimes late into the night if I'm studying late. I've also taken a VitaminB12 shot which I'm supposed to take every 2 weeks. One of the benefits is that it keeps the energy level up although I'm not sure I've noticed the difference. I sent my aunt to the vitamin store to get me all kinds of supplements including water pills, fiber pills, and a carb blocker. I know this is all temporary but I just need all the assistance I can get until I get this exam out of the way which is the biggest priority right now.

Also I'd like to thank everyone who left comments wondering about my absentee status, I greatly appreciate it and I do need all the support I can get. I'll try to update more since I know that helps me stay on track.