Week 2 Day 1
About a week ago, right before I started the program I bought these adidas pants on clearance at lady foot locker that I thought looked cute, I got them in a medium because that was the largest size they had and they were really cheap. When I went home I just couldn’t get the pants past my thighs. Today, I wore those pants out!!!! I have to admit they were tight and I wore a longer sweatshirt to hide my butt but STILL, they fit! I haven’t actually put on any jeans yet. I almost stopped wearing jeans because I find them so uncomfortable and I just refused to buy them in my size with the hopes that I’ll be losing weight. The two jeans that I own and until recently worn are both size 12 and they’re just extremely tight and one of them I can’t get to button, I don’ t know even know what my size is. The past few months I’ve basically been wearing sweatpants, dress pants, and skirts so it’s comforting to know I’m dropping in size!
Today my academic advisor emailed me over a final review paper that I was supposed to turn in months ago to complete my masters degree. It was literally a two-line email and said something like “I’m assuming you’re just about done with your paper”. I sensed his underlying tone of being annoyed which put me in panic mode. I plan on staying up as late as possible to finish that paper even if it’s all night, although I hope I won’t have to do that I’m supposed to be doing some doctor shadowing at 9AM. So that’s another thing I really need to work on in life, time management, focus, and panic control. Hopefully that self-discipline that I’m picking up with this program will help with other aspects of life.
As for my diet today, I had both chicken salad and leftover ravioli for lunch which resulted in a rather high calorie day when compared to my other days on the program, but that’s good, I’m happy; I felt like I was eating too little the other days anyway and was worried about getting my body used to that. At the end of the day I had 1073 calories, 65 grams of fat, and 62.5 grams of carbs.
Update: I got hungry at around 10:30 and I was also really stressed out trying to finish my paper, so I didn't resist and let myself have two slices of low fat deli meat, it's only 50 cals so I'm not worried.