Week 1 Day 1
Today is the first official day on the personal journey that’ll probably be one of the most important one of my life, making over my body-FOR LIFE! I’m a 23 yr old female and as of yesterday I was 5”1 and weighed 190 pounds, the most I’ve ever been. Just typing that number down gave me the chills!!
Here’s my introductory tell you about myself blab la bla paragraph: I have has just completed a masters degree (almost completed, still have a final paper to turn in), I currently reside in my home town of Baton Rouge, LA, I’m arab, and I work part-time in a popular and over-priced retail store that doesn’t even carry my size. I’ve always wanted to go to medical school but after finishing my masters in genetics I decided MD isn’t for me and I’m hoping to be in optometry school in the fall of ’08. I spend a lot of my days applying for jobs (hoping to work at an eye clinic), researching for my masters paper, and working. Throughout the blog I’ll be talking more about my life and past but right now there’s too much to say.
So back to the body makeover! I’ve had issues with weight for as long as I can remember although I wasn’t always a fat girl, I’m sure a lot of you reading this blog can relate to that! In high school I felt like the fattest girl although I fluctuated between size 4 and 6. My weight in college was constantly up and down, during my sophomore year I went on the south beach diet with my roommate and lost around 25 pounds that got me down to a size 6, but after a tough graduate school year I can now barely fit in size 14! I’ve been on just about every diet that has a name, and I KNOW that many of you reading this can relate to that one! I usually don’t lose more than a few pounds with the exception of the south beach. The last diet I was on was the Nurtisystem, before that I’ve tried slimfast, weightwatchers, the master cleanse, grapefruit diet, scarsdale, abs diet, etc. I’ve realized the problem isn’t with the diets as much as it is with me, I mean if you stick to any of those you’re going to lose weight and learn healthy habits but I had low willpower and low confidence in my ability to succeed, like one of my friends once told me “you always sabotage yourself”. I recently went on vacation to attend my cousins wedding and I don’t think there was a family member that didn’t comment on my weight. My parents are not happy with my size, my dad gives me almost daily lectures about my health (I also have a congenital heart disorder) and my mom is just the worst, I think she thinks that if she calls me enough names I’ll get motivated to lose weight. My mom is one of those moms that’s pretty big on image, she loves to tell people about all of my academic achievements and standardized test scores but at the same time I feel that she gets embarrassed by me, I’m definitely one of the “bigger” girls in the arab-muslim community. At weddings and parties I’ve noticed that she’ll point out my size double zero sister to people she just met.
My best friend convinced to sign up with this medical weight loss center called Body Image Solutions here in Baton Rouge, that happens to be the same place she goes for laser hair removal; she’s probably one of the only people that know how much of a low I’ve reached and she just wants to see me happy. What attracted me to give that a try is the whole group support thing and the fact that you have to go in every week to meet with a counselor and once a month to meet with a physician. I went over to the clinic yesterday and attended the nutrition class which was pretty much information I already know from all the diet books I read (but it's good to hear it again), I met with a physician who prescribed an appetite suppressant, and they convinced me to purchase a few supplements that you can probably get over the counter that include a water pill, a fiber pill, energy pill, and a craving control pill. I take 4 of those daily and one of them as needed. Basically, I’m supposed to eat 1200 calories a day (300 breakfast, 400 lunch, 300 dinner, and 2-100 cal snacks) and cut out simple carbohydrates. They gave me a customized meal plan as well as a food diary that I am to be recording everything in. They also told me I really need to lose 85 pounds. I thought I was going to be paying 100 dollars a month for my 3 month membership but at the end of the day I ended up charging almost 450 dollars. Afterwards I called my friend and she told me to trust her it's going to be worth it! My mom covered most of the cost but very sternly told me that if I didn’t lose weight I owe her the money. I’ll probably be spending another 50-100 dollars a month on the supplements if I decide I want them.
So as I mentioned, today was the first official day although it really should have been yesterday except I had mcdonald’s for lunch. I took my pills in the morning and the fiber pills before meals and I have recorded in my food diary that I ate a total of 920 calories, 29 grams of fat, and 26 grams of carbohydrates and surprisingly it was easy to do. Not only did I serve myself healthy food but I just got full on small portions! My biggest struggle was probably in between the meals/snacks I got hungry but once I sat down and ate I only wanted a little bit. I went to the mall food court with a coworker and convinced her to split a salad with me, I just wanted to eat something small. I’m hesitant to say this on the first day but that stuff is working!
The reason why I decided to start a blog is that I’m hoping to create a network of cyber support especially for young females who need a body makeover. I always felt that reading others blogs/stories gave me some motivation but a lot of times I felt that I couldn’t quite relate with the middle-aged mother of 3, although if you fall in that category and you’re reading my blog I still do feel your struggle and wish you success. I don’t care what ‘diet’ you’re doing or plan you’re following but we all have a greater thing in common and I hope that reading about my experience gives you support and motivation like writing it gives me support and motivation to reach the greater goal. If you have any questions/comments I would LOVE to hear from you!