Sunday, January 20, 2008

I still have diet syndrome

Things have not been going too great, my membership at the clinic expired and I decided to hold off on renewing it until I run out of supplements and the suppressant because it is on the enxpensive side.

I decided to go on that restrictive "no-no" diet which is where I totally cut out carbs for a week or 2 in order to "shock" my body and get the weight loss moving faster. So the day before I ate all kinds of bad food in anticipation of the diet. I had an oyster poboy, fries, fried mushroom, and some cake. Anyway, the next day I was fasting until sundown for religious reasons (Ashura in the Muslim calendar) and by late evening I just absolutely could not take that I wasn't allowed to eat something and told myself "hey I was fasting today I'll just start tomorrow". I ended up eating gelatto, banana bread pudding (lots of it), and some cookies. So that would be 2 bad days in a row. When the third day came around, in the morning I really wanted something sweet with my coffee especially because I was about ot start on this "diet" for 7 days so what's the big deal if I just start at lunchtime? I ended up eating a whole twix bar and some more banana bread pudding. I wasn't even enjoying this stuff to be honest, my goal was to get in as much as I could before it was not allowed as if it's supposed to satisfy any future junk food cravings I may have.

Sometime shortly after that I realized that it's this exact diet mentality that is going to be the ruin of me. I just can't do it! I've been down this road so many times I can't believe I almost fell for it again. When I go on these "diets"-yes it's true that I do lose weight , however I usually gain some weight beforehand in anticipation (like I did now) and when I get off I always immediately put back on some pounds because I have those post-splurges. Eventually my weight ALWAYS goes back up because I really didn't learn very much that I can apply to my life.

I need to go back to doing what I was doing, which is basically eating intuitively and not depriving myself of anything. I need to accept that it's going to be a SLOWWWW process but this is really the best way to acheive my physical and MENTAL well-being for the long-run. I'm learning to apply better choices into my life and I'm acquring permanent habits, which takes time.


Organic-Muslimah said...

Ya. I understand what you mean. I think what you were doing before was best. Don't deprive yourself and you are in no hurry to lose weight.

Anonymous said...

Getting rid of the diet mentality is the way to permanent weight loss. It is good you realized this soon and went back to a healthy lifestyle.
The only way to do it is to change habits forever.

TinyTrim said...

Good for you for coming to that realization! It's hard to pull back from that sometimes and see what's really going on :)

Stephanie said...

Hey - did you try the bras?

I am the same way about deprivation. It gets tough, I know. Go back to what has worked before - a guaranteed win for you. Hope you're doing well today.

Mel said...

I struggle with the same thing. I am starting to learn what actually works for me (low-glycemic index diet). I wish I wasn't such a slow learner!


Mama Bear June said...

I really recommend the Abs Diet for Women book. He talks about all the reasons most of us yo-yo and gives you healthy foods to eat often and I NEVER feel deprived and am never hungry. He also explains the science behind the way our bodies work. I have really learned a lot and enjoy his food recommendations.
Path to Health

TinyTrim said...

I just wanted to let you know that I still pop by to see how you're doing. I'm hoping everything is going okay for you. Best wishes!

breckgirl said...

What are you doing?! Where have you been? I am officially checking up on you.

Did you slide off the track or something? School a bummer? I just wanted you to know (and it appears that a few other people want you to know, too) that we miss you and are wondering how you are doing. That's all - and we don't care if you've eaten mountains of food, either. Why, just last night I was secretly stuffing cookies into my snack hole!! No matter what's going on, we would just love to hear from ya. Take care!

TinyTrim said...

Just stopping by as usual, wanting to know how you're doing. I brought my sleeping bag so I'm here for the long haul! ;)

amma15 said...

OM, good point!

W, so true!

tinytrim, I can come to the realization but the problem is forgetting again.

Stephanie, the la mystere is pretty good, it's not perfect but I'm doubting whether the perfect bra exists-I have since bought another la mystere.

Mel, well when you learn fast you also tend to forget fast, so you're blessed actually!

Mamma, I actually raed that book in college and went on the abs diet. I lost a few pounds and learned some great things but I think the diet ismore ideally tailored for men than women.

Tinytrim, thanks I really appreciated that

Breckgirl, thanks so much for the message. Yea I've done a bit of both, fall off track and school has been a bummer and I was just a little bit embarassed to update myblog.

tinytrim, awwww you're so cute-you're welcome to stay as long as you want!